You will be found.

Dear Evan Hansen. Mar. 12 & Jun. 11, 2022 at the Music Box Theatre

*** 有雷慎入 ***

是2017年的東尼獎最佳音樂劇！某一陣子百老匯上有特別多關於高中校園生活的音樂劇。讓人不禁好奇美國的高中到底是有多辛苦，才讓藝術家們得到這麼多的靈感…希望孩子們看了這些音樂劇之後，都能了解到每個人生活都不簡單，能對彼此更好一點。

《Dear Evan Hansen》的劇名很巧妙地點出了這個故事的契機：一封信。一封主人公Evan Hansen為了跟心理醫師交差了事而寫給自己的信。結果在一連串的陰錯陽差之下，這封信被誤認為是一個不幸自殺的學生Connor Murphy寫給好朋友Evan Hansen的信。謊言就從這裡開始像雪球一樣越滾越大。Evan不僅從一個校園邊緣人搖身一變成為網路風雲人物，也和Murphy一家人越走越近。近到Murphy家的爸媽想幫Evan出大學學費的那種近。隨著越來越多的謊言開始自相矛盾，最後還是到了真相大白的時刻。儘管事實總是很殘酷，但這個巨大謊言的副產物，The Connor Project，一個以紀念Connor為出發點，想提醒大家你不孤單的一個社團，卻讓很多人有機會聚在一起。劇的最後，因為這個謊言應該受傷最深，短暫跟Evan交往過的Connor妹妹Zoe，也承認他們家當時需要這個謊言來幫他們度過那個艱難的時刻。也許，謊言也可以很美麗。

這部音樂劇的音樂是很有名的雙人組合Pasek & Paul寫的。他們優秀到已經贏過四大表演藝術獎項(艾美獎、葛萊美獎、奧斯卡獎、東尼獎)，是有史以來28個EGOT winners的其中兩個(奧黛麗赫本也是EGOT winner!)。寫過《La La Land》的City of Stars，還有很賣座的電影《大藝術家》。我覺得從《Dear Evan Hansen》的音樂裡就可以看出他們真的很有才華。不只音樂風格很廣，各個角色在歌曲裡的對話或是獨白都很精采有趣。除了展現不同角色對同一件事情的不同觀點，幾個地方的歌詞還讓我更進一步認識英文可以有多活有多美。

• Anybody have a map? -- 是整部劇的第一首歌。是兩個媽媽的育兒煩惱。在苦惱怎麼才能讓兒子能更有自信，更融入學校生活。其實這部劇不單單是在寫高中生的煩惱。家長們的煩惱也一起寫進去了。

• Waving through the window -- 是Evan Hansen的邊緣人獨白。在疑惑自己是不是個隱形人，有沒有人看見他。

• Requiem -- Murphy家的三個人(爸爸、媽媽、妹妹Zoe)各自訴說自己不為Connor唱安魂曲的原因。妹妹的部分搭配音樂是最最尖銳的控訴了：“Don't say it wasn't true. That you were not the monster that I knew.” 真的是家家有本難念的經。

• Disappear -- No one deserves to be forgotten.

• You will be found -- 應該可以說是這部劇的主題曲。這首歌激勵人心到超多合唱團都有翻唱這首，連美軍的合唱團也翻唱了。希望我們都會永遠記得，最勇敢的事，就是伸出手，找人幫忙。

• So big, so small -- 是謊言的泡沫破掉之後，Evan的媽媽終於發現兒子撒了漫天大謊，回到家，坐在沙發上，唱給Evan聽的歌。從一個Evan爸爸離開他們那天的故事開始，承諾了身為媽媽的陪伴。從空間上的大房子，對比到Evan媽媽心理上感受到的渺小。再轉到時間上的對比，知道Evan現在一定覺得整個世界的巨大重量都在自己身上，但媽媽再次承諾了自己的陪伴，告訴Evan一切都會過去，大事會慢慢變成小事，而媽媽還會繼續在這裡。也許這部劇只是想提醒大家簡簡單單的陪伴就是表現無條件的愛的最好方式了。

《Dear Evan Hansen》當時紅遍半邊天，還接連出現了小說和電影版。和一般電影改編成音樂劇的路線比起來，算是反過來走。小說雖然有了更細膩的情節描述，但少了音樂我覺得缺少了很大一個觸動人心的部分。電影版雖然是贏了東尼獎的原版音樂劇男主角挑大樑演出，還請到重量級演員Julianne Moore和Amy Adams，整個改編我只能用可怕來形容。導演莫名卡掉一些好聽又重要的歌，特別是兩個媽媽對唱的歌，讓整部劇失去了重要的劇情張力。所以如果有機會可以看到音樂劇的話，一定要去好好看看。不要因為電影版就誤會這部劇的精采程度，錯過幫自己加油打氣的機會！

You will be found

https://youtu.be/mSfH2AuhXfw?si=63gmzUr8iCqqYmVH

[Evan]

Have you ever felt like nobody was there? 你可曾覺得沒人在身邊？

Have you ever felt forgotten in the middle of nowhere? 你可曾覺得被遺忘在一片荒野？

Have you ever felt like you could disappear? 你可曾覺得你可以消聲匿跡？

Like you could fall, and no one would hear? 像是你可以摔倒，而沒有人會聽到？

Well, let that lonely feeling wash away 嗯，讓那孤獨的感覺被沖掉

Maybe there's a reason to believe you'll be okay 也許有個理由去相信你會變好

'Cause when you don't feel strong enough to stand 因為當你覺得沒力站穩

You can reach, reach out your hand 你可以，可以伸出手

And oh, someone will come running 然後，有人會向你跑來

And I know, they'll take you home 而我知道，他們會帶你回家

Even when the dark comes crashing through 即使當黑暗席捲而來

When you need a friend to carry you 當你需要一個朋友扛著你

And when you're broken on the ground 當你受傷倒在地上

You will be found 你會被找到

So let the sun come streaming in 所以讓那陽光流入

'Cause you'll reach up and you'll rise again 因為你會向上伸手並且站起來

Lift your head and look around 抬起頭來看看四周

You will be found 你會被找到

You will be found 你會被找到

You will be found 你會被找到

You will be found 你會被找到

You will be found 你會被找到

[Alana]

(Have you seen this? Someone put a video of your speech online) (你看過這個了嗎？有人把你的演講短片放上網)

[Evan]

(My speech?) (我的演講？)

[Alana]

(People started sharing it, I guess, and now, I mean... Connor is everywhere) (大家開始分享，我猜，然後現在，Connor的故事到處都是)

[Jared]

(Your speech is everywhere. This morning, the Connor Project page, it only had 56 people following it) (你的演講到處都是。今天早上，Connor計畫的網頁，只有56個支持者)

[Evan]

(Well, how many does it have now?) (嗯，那現在有多少支持者？)

[Jared]

(Four thousand five-hundred and eighty-two) (四千五百八十二)

[Alana]

(Sixteen thousand two-hundred and thirty-nine) (一萬六千兩百三十九)

[Evan]

(I don't understand, what happened?) (我不懂。發生什麼事了？)

[Cynthia]

(You did) (你發生了)

[Alana]

There's a place where we don't have to feel unknown 有個地方我們不用覺得自己是陌生人

[Community voices]

(Oh my God) (我的天)

(Everybody needs to see this) (每個人都該看看這個)

[Alana]

And every time that you call out 而每一次當你求助

You're a little less alone 你就更不孤獨

[Community voices]

(I can't stop watching this video) (我沒辦法停止不看這個影片)

(Seventeen years old) (十七歲的孩子)

[Jared]

If you only say the word 只要你說出來

[Community voices]

(Take five minutes) (花個五分鐘)

(This will make your day) (這會讓你開心整天)

[Jared & Alana]

From across the silence 從沉默的另一端

Your voice is heard 你的聲音會被聽見

[Community voices]

Ah 啊~

(Share it with the people you love) (分享給你愛的人)

(Repost) (轉貼)

(The world needs to hear this) (這個世界需要聽聽這個)

(A beautiful tribute) (美麗的感言)

(Favorite) (最愛)

(I know someone who really needed to hear this today, so thank you, Evan Hansen, for doing what you're doing) (我知道有人今天真的需要聽到這個，所以，謝謝你做了這些你在做的事，Evan Hansen)

(I never met you Connor, but coming on here, reading everyone's posts) (我從來不認識你，Connor，但來到這裡，讀著大家的貼文)

[Company]

Ah 啊~

Someone will come running 有人會向你跑來

To take you home 帶你回家

[Community voices]

(It's so easy to feel alone, but Evan is exactly right. We're not alone, none of us) (真的很容易感到孤單，但Evan說得沒錯。我們不孤單，沒有任何一個人)

(We're not alone, none of us) (我們不孤單，沒有任何一個人)

(None of us) (沒有任何一個人)

(None of us are alone) (我們沒有任何一個人是孤單的)

(Like) (按讚)

(Especially now, with everything that you hear in the news) (特別是現在，新聞上聽到的各種事情)

(Like. Share. Repost. Forward) (按讚。分享。轉貼。轉發)

(Thank you, Evan Hansen, for giving us a space to remember Connor) (謝謝你，Evan Hansen，給了我們一個空間來記得Connor)

(To be together) (讓我們一起)

(To find each other) (讓我們找到彼此)

(Sending prayers from Michigan) (來自密西根的祝福)

(Vermont. Tampa. Sacramento) (佛蒙特。坦帕。沙加緬度)

(Thank you, Evan Hansen) (謝謝你，Evan Hansen)

[Overlapping]

(Repost) (轉貼)

(Thank you, Evan) (謝謝你，Evan)

(Thank you, Evan Hansen) (謝謝你，Evan Hansen)

(This video is) (這個影片實在)

(Thanks to Evan) (感謝Evan)

(This is about) (這是關於)

(Thank you) (謝謝)

(Evan Hansen)

[Company]

Ah 啊~

Someone will come running 有人會向你跑來

To take you home 帶你回家

[Company]

Even when the dark comes crashing through 即使當黑暗席捲而來

When you need a friend to carry you 當你需要一個朋友扛著你

When you're broken on the ground 當你受傷倒在地上

You will be found 你會被找到

So let the sun come streaming in 所以讓那陽光流入

'Cause you'll reach up and you'll rise again 因為你會向上伸手並且站起來

If you only look around 如果你看看四周

You will be found (You will be found) 你會被找到 (你會被找到)

You will be found (You will be found) 你會被找到 (你會被找到)

You will be found 你會被找到

Out of the shadows 從陰影中

The morning is breaking 晨光正在破曉

And all is new, all is new 一切都是新的，一切都是新的

It's filling up the empty 晨光在填滿空虛

And suddenly I see that 而我突然看見

All is new, all is new 一切都是新的，一切都是新的

You are not alone 你不孤單

You are not alone 你不孤單

You are not alone 你不孤單

You are not alone 你不孤單

You are not alone (You are not alone) 你不孤單 (你不孤單)

You are not alone (You are not alone) 你不孤單 (你不孤單)

You are not 你不

You are not alone (You are not alone) 你不孤單 (你不孤單)

[Zoe]

Even when the dark comes crashing through 即使當黑暗席捲而來

When you need someone to carry you 當你需要一個人扛著你

When you're broken on the ground 當你受傷倒在地上

[Company]

You will be found 你會被找到

So let the sun come streaming in 所以讓那陽光流入

'Cause you'll reach up and you'll rise again 因為你會向上伸手並且站起來

If you only look around 如果你看看四周

You will be found 你會被找到

Even when the dark comes crashing through 即使當黑暗席捲而來

You will be found 你會被找到

When you need someone to carry you 當你需要一個人扛著你

You will be found 你會被找到

You will be found 你會被找到

[Evan]

You will be found 你會被找到

*** Spoiler Alert ***

2017 Tony Award for Best Musical! There was a period on Broadway when multiple musicals were about high school life. One might be wondering how tough American high school life is to give so much inspiration to the artists... Hopefully the kids would be inspired by these musicals, realize everyone has challenges, and be nicer to each other.

The title of Dear Evan Hansen cleverly hints at the genesis of the story: a letter. A letter that the protagonist Evan Hansen wrote to himself simply as an assignment from his therapist. After a series of mishaps, the letter was mistakenly thought to be written by Connor Murphy, a student who tragically killed himself, to his best friend Evan Hansen. Lies started to snowball from there since. Not only did Evan go from an outcast in school to an internet sensation, but he also got closer to the Murphy family. So close that Connor's parents even offered to pay for Evan's college tuition. As more and more lies began to contradict themselves, the moment of truth finally arrived. Despite the merciless truth, the by-product of the gigantic lie, The Connor Project -- a club that was founded in memory of Connor to remind people that no one was alone -- actually provided an opportunity for people to be together. At the end of the show, Connor's sister Zoe, who briefly dated Evan and was probably hurt the most by the lie, even acknowledged that her family needed the lie to help them endure that difficult time. Perhaps, lies can be beautiful.

The music of this show was written by the famous American songwriting duo Pasek & Paul. They are so good that they have won the four big awards for entertainment/performing arts (Emmy Awards, Grammy Awards, Academy Awards, Tony Awards) and are 2 of the only 28 EGOT winners in history (Audrey Hepburn is also an EGOT winner!). They wrote City of Stars in La La Land, and the music in the popular musical movie The Greatest Showman. Their immense musical talent was well demonstrated in Dear Evan Hansen. Aside from the wide array of musical style, the conversations or soliloquies in the songs were brilliant and witty. In addition to showing different viewpoints of different characters on the same subjects, some lyrics made me further appreciate the beauty of English.

• Anybody have a map? -- The first song of the show. Two moms struggling with parenting their high school sons. They struggle with wanting their kids to be more confident and fit in more. The show is more than the struggles of high school kids. It is also in some ways about parenting.

• Waving through the window -- Evan's soliloquy as an outcast in school. Wondering if he is invisible and no one can see him.

• Requiem -- The Murphy family (dad, mom, sister Zoe) share why they wouldn't sing a requiem for Connor. Zoe's part with the melody is such a sharp accusation: "Don't say it wasn't true. That you were not the monster that I knew.” Every family has a skeleton in the closet.

• Disappear -- No one deserves to be forgotten.

• You will be found -- This is probably the theme song of this show. It is so inspiring that many bands and a capella groups did a cover of this song, even the US Army and Navy. May we all remember that one of the bravest things to do, is to reach out and ask for help.

• So big, so small -- After the bubbles of lie burst, Evan's mom finally found the gigantic mess that Evan had caused. She got home, sat on the couch, and sang to Evan. It started with the day that Evan's dad left them, the day she promised that she would stay. The contrasts in the lyrics are so beautiful: from the spatially big house to the mom who was in a million pieces; then the temporal difference between now and the future. Evan's mom understands that Evan must be feeling the massive weight of the world on him at the moment, but she promises him that everything will pass and become small, and she will still be there with him. Maybe this show is a reminder that simply being present with your kids is the best way to show your unconditional love.

Dear Evan Hansen was so popular that a novel and a movie adaptation were happening not long after the show went on Broadway. Unlike many other musicals that were adapted from movies, it took sort of a reverse route. Even though the novel had more detailed plots, without the music, some heartfelt elements from the musical were missing. For the movie, although the original Tony-winning Ben Platt resumed the role of Evan, and there were superstars Julianne Moore and Amy Adams, the movie was just horrifying. The director somehow ended up cutting some of the great and important songs, especially the duets between the two moms. The tension in the story disappeared with the songs. If you ever get a chance to see a local production or a touring company, go and see it. Don't let the movie give you the wrong impression about the show and miss the chance to be reminded that you are not alone.